Inner Strength

She smiles and says she's fine,
A look into her eyes tells a different story,
They wear a look of exhaustion,
While her body language suggests,
She is extremely run down,
Showing that the burdens she carries,
On those tender shoulders,
Are meant for others who are more experienced in life...

The burdens she bears,
Are heavy enough to ruin most people,
Yet not only does she carry them,
With tremendous inner strength,
She carries them with a glorious smile,
A smile that says,
I can take what life throws at me,
It won't drag me down...

One can only admire her for this,
I have so much respect for her,
I hold her in the highest regard.

Lost Opportunity

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The words flash up at me,
Confirming what I've dreaded for a long time,
The one thing I wanted,
Taken away,
The opportunity to have it,
Dashed...

I've known for a long time
That I'd never have it,
I've known for a long time
That what has happened would happen,
But it is still heartbreaking
To see it there in writing.

I Had a Choice

I met the both of you,
During a wonderful week away,
Now that I have a choice between you two,
I don't know which way to sway.

I feel I need some help,
From somewhere up above,
My head is spinning this way and that,
Love split two ways isn't enough.

Both your smiles are equally glorious,
I realise I do not deserve either,
Around yee, I get too anxious,
Start to crowd yee, causing bitter anger...

I have a choice between two,
I don't deserve either of you,
I have a choice between two,
I'd be lucky to have just one of you,
I have a choice between two,
Even though our friendship's still new,
I have a choice between two,
And I really don't know what to do...

Yet, even if I made a choice,
I have already lost both of you,
In the same tone of voice,
You both knock back my advances toward you.

I really can't understand,
This sudden change of heart,
Especially since yee both said,
Yee loved me from the start.

Now my heart is broken,
The wonderful dilemma, taken away,
All I have now is this token,
A newspaper cutting from that day...

I had a choice between two,
Then I lost the pair of you,
I had a choice between two,
I don't understand, what did I do?
I had a choice between two,
Now our friendship's all askew,
I had a choice between two,
Now I don't have either of you...

Goodbye (Version 2)

The old writer heads to his type writer,
He's in the middle of writing his memoirs,
Life and old age have made his features harsh,
Success has brought him no happiness,
Just resentment and bitterness,
His stories always had gruesome endings,
He hated the typical fairytale ending...

He saw no point in lying to everyone,
In giving people false hope,
He always wrote about the real world,
The harsh world,
The one he had lived in for nearly 80 years...

His memoirs could've been passed off as one of his books,
Such was the hate and bitterness that filled it,
His life had been tough,
He fought addictions and life threatening diseases,
Yet he had come through all that,
But those experiences had made him a shadow of a person...

But just as he approached the end of his memoirs,
Something odd happened to the old writer,
He was hit by a sudden epiphany,
One that told him his life had given him much more,
Than he or anyone else could've asked for,
His life had given him love and loss,
Aswell as a constant battle,
And, as bitter as he was towards everything in his life,
The old writer realised for the first time ever,
That he was happy with how everything had turned out...

So when the police found his body the next day,
Slumped over his type writer,
The words they found typed there were the last of his memoirs,
And they read...

"I have died a happy man...goodbye to a wonderful life."

Gone

I have ruined everything between us,
Our friendship was a strong bond between us,
But I have shaken that bond to it's core,
As I have allowed my feelings to change,
Change from being happy as just friends,
To wanting you to be mine forevermore...
The startled look on your face was indescribable,
When I told you how I feel,
You were happy to remain as friends and nothing more,
And the big fear for me now is that,
You decide to hate me and refuse to talk to me,
But that hasn't happened yet,
As you say we can still be friends,
But, even though you say our friendship is still strong,
I know that things will be always be awkward between us.

The friendship we had before is gone,
And it is never coming back...
Because I couldn't control my emotions.