Waiting

I have never known such joy,
I'm as happy as I'll ever be,
But now the insecurities appear,
I fear losing you...

You insist I have nothing to worry about,
You say you're as happy as I am,
But now I find myself waiting,
For the fall that follows every high...

I tell myself to just enjoy this time,
To enjoy every moment in your arms,
But it's so hard to do that,
When I expect the worst to just suddenly happen...

My face shows no tears,
But on the inside it's flooded,
Hours and hours are spent dreading,
Hearing those words that will end my joy...

Still I sit waiting...
Waiting for the inevitable...