The Breakdown

The breakdown has finally happened,
Years of mental barriers are destroyed,
The fake personality that has been created,
Has finally come flying apart,
All the love and the plaudits that have been awarded to me,
Are all snatched away,
They were all earned in an underhand way,
I don't deserve them,
And never will...

The brain has finally cracked under pressure,
The years of lying have taken their toll,
Everything dark comes into the light,
A lot of innocent people are hurt,
I have betrayed their trust and friendship,
They have befriended someone who wasn't me,
Someone who was a complete stranger to me,
But now the stranger has been beaten,
The image of him is now distorted,
Until it now resembles the true personality of myself...

The selfish, twisted and self loathing fool is now back again...

Screaming Bullets

A mind consumed by nothing but madness,
Following years of nothing but sadness,
A mentally broken shadow of a man,
Has ruined God's ingenious musical master plan...

He abandons the one he claims he loves,
Her love for him never seemed to be enough,
He goes to New York and he gets a gun,
And the screams of the bullets were heard by everyone...

Every night he screams and screams,
Yet he only ever screams silently,
The screams echo in his chest painfully,
He shares in everyone's pain, he knows of it already...

Then one night his silence broke,
On his own tears he began to choke,
It seemed he would walk away from this horrible act,
But in the end he couldn't break his own pact...

That night the gun did his screaming,
That night millions started grieving,
That night innocent blood was spilled,
That night a God amongst men was killed...

That night he pulled the trigger of the gun...
That night he shot the immortal John Lennon.

Diamonds & Gems

Those lights in your eyes,
Could brighten any dark sky,
They light the way,
Come what may,
Dark passages and caves,
Illuminate under your rays...

Those diamonds and gems...
People claim sunrise upon seeing them...

When matched with that smile,
You can be spotted from a million miles,
They shine so bright,
You never leave my sight,
From no one, can you ever hide,
So bright are those glorious lights...

Those diamonds and gems...
Wishes are made upon seeing them...

Those lights will shine forever,
They are too bright to ever say never,
They are like an everlasting fire,
Burning brightly, blinding liars,
Seeing them is like a dream,
Certainties suddenly aren't what they seem...

Those diamonds and gems...
Tears flow upon seeing them...

They shine like headlights in cars,
Maybe brighter, bright as the stars,
Smiles are raised wherever they go,
To places of misfortune, they give hope,
All frowns are turned upside down,
Those eyes are the jewels in life's crown...

Those diamonds and gems...
Hearts glow upon seeing them...

(whenever I read this back I'm convinced I was re-reading Emerald at the time of writing it 'cause it wreaks of Emerald wannabe, even though Diamonds & Gems is probably better in the sense that it has more fluidity).

Moonlight

The light of the moon in the sky,
Creates shadows that the sun would be envious of,
The clouds all part due to the brightness of the night,
A cloudy night is now cloudless,
An average skyline is now mesmerising...

The light of the moon can guide,
The light of the moon can show the way,
I know I will find my way home tonight,
Because the moonlight's rays will protect me,
And make sure I see my bed again...

Liberation

I've finally done it,
I've finally broken free of the shackles,
That bound my heart to my head,
I've finally escaped the mind consuming idea,
That the most important thing in life is love,
I'm free from the ball and chain,
Free from the thoughts of endless heartbreak,
I've experienced everything life has to offer,
Love, hate and everything in between,
But now I've broken free of my mental constraints,
And my friend opens her arms and proclaims,
It's good to have you back...

To which my reply is...
It's good to be back...