Guilt

A hollow, empty feeling washes over me,
I feel so horribly guilty,
I practically dragged you out,
I badly wished to see you,
But you had an awful time,
Out in the freezing cold,
As you were surrounded by idiots,
Ignorant to those around them,
To the feelings they possess...

I'm sorry for the horrendous weather,
I'm sorry for the stupidity of my friends,
I'm sorry for the heartlessness of men,
I'm sorry for every bad thing that's ever happened to you,
Even if I couldn't prevent it,
Or be faulted for it,
As you don't deserve to be hurt,
You deserve to have everything go right for you,
Because you are the nicest person I know...

And I just wish I had it in me,
To give you blissful eternity.

From a Glimmer to Nothing Again

The first time I laid my eyes on you,
I thought I had died and gone to heaven,
And any hope I harboured of being with you,
Were either confined to my over active imagination,
Or to my most wonderful of dreams about you.
But the years have now rolled by
Since that faithful September day,
And with them, my dreams have suddenly become a possibility,
Yet, not even a huge one,
Just a small glimmer of hope,
But that is more than I could ever have wished for
All those years ago,
As a small chance of being with you,
Is all I've ever wanted.
Yet I find this irritating for two reasons,
One being that now I have a glimmer of hope,
I now want a full on guarantee
Before taking the plunge and asking you to go out with me,
While the second is I lack the courage necessary,
To act on the glimmer of hope that has been presented to me,
And while that glimmer slowly fizzles into nothing again,
You will be happy with someone who had the courage
To take the plunge and take your hand,
A hand that I long to make my own.

Big Man's Grave

I went to see your grave today Big Man,
Noticing for the first time it's a shade of dark green,
Something that is typical of you,
You who would ooze green in abundance,
If you were to be cut open.

You left us years too early Big Man,
A light from our lives has gone,
It was extinguished far too prematurely,
And it now lives on only in our memories,
The good ones, not the bad one you left us with.

It took me a long while to find you Big Man,
Hidden amongst all the other people,
It's hard to believe that so many are dead,
It's even harder to believe that you are one of them,
It should never have been.

The time has come for me to leave you Big Man,
But I shall return again soon,
With tales of joyous victory or painstaking defeat,
For your beloved Celtic, as well as stories of my own life,
Stories that I know you play a big part in...

As I know I never walk alone,
You're spirit keeps a constant vigil by my side.

A Shield From Evil

Our friendship is stronger than ever,
We can talk to each other about almost anything,
You're one of my closest friends,
You mean so much to me.
I can't stop thinking about you,
A frown on your face,
Makes me worry constantly about you.
Any burden you carry on your tender shoulders,
I'd gladly carry for you,
Any worries I see in your shining eyes,
I want you to transfer to me,
So that you need not fear anything.
You're such a nice person,
The nicest I have ever known,
And will ever know,
You don't deserve to be treated poorly,
You should be treated like royalty.
You don't have to worry about anything,
All the bad things in the world won't harm you,
I am here to protect you from all things terrible,
I am here to shield you from all things evil.

A Call for the Old Days

I wish for a return to the old days,
The days that us three together,
Would spend under the sun's rays,
I constantly think about the past,
And shed a tear to myself,
Wondering why our friendship did not last,
I understand that people drift,
As they grow older and wiser,
But the incident that caused the rift,
Was a stupid reason for our friendship to end,
And now, the wounds are so deep,
That it is impossible for them to mend,
Meaning that our friendship,
That once seemed to be an unbreakable bond,
Has been shattered to pieces,
Because you both thought the other was in the wrong.
I know now,
That being around each other won't ever be the same,
But please find it in your hearts to somehow
Play with me, in one last game.