Insignificance

Have you ever felt so small
That the fear of being stepped on
Was one that was genuine?

Have you ever felt so insignificant
That every word that left your lips
Just faded away into a whisper?

Have you ever felt so out of touch
That the sight of your friends’ backs
Didn’t come as a surprise?

Have you ever felt so ignored
That you knew screaming every obscenity under the sun
Would make absolutely no difference?

Have you ever felt so isolated
That you felt like you were going to
Suffocate from loneliness?

Have you ever felt so cold
That even standing next to people in a horribly hot room
Did nothing to heat you up?

Have you ever felt so defeated
That you thought running away from everything
Was the easiest and best way to move on?

Have you ever felt so alone
That the reassuring words of those around you
Meant absolutely nothing?

Have you ever felt so inferior
That the looks of those superior
Seemed almost to be mocking?

Have you ever felt so cut off from proceedings
That you felt any word you attempt to contribute
Would fall on deaf ears?

Have you ever felt so betrayed
That it felt like a thousand knives
Had been plunged into your back a thousand times?

Have you ever felt so empty
That you instantly knew you didn’t matter to anyone
And that life would be a better place without you?

I have…
Such insignificance is a horrible feeling…