I Was Born

So today I made a big mistake,
I based it all on chance,
Heads or tails,
A single flip,
And the little hope that flickered inside
Was finally snuffed out,
The smoke that rose after
Was the only indication it existed at all…

I was born to make mistakes,
I was born to throw it all away,
I was born to live by chance,
I was born to die everyday…

To go or to stay,
The coin flew into the air,
Spinning, spinning,
Falling, falling,
Instead of speeding up,
Its descent slowed right down,
As my impending fate
Fell alongside it…

I was born to make mistakes,
I was born to throw it all away,
I was born to live by chance,
I was born to die everyday…

It lands flat in my hand,
The coldness runs right through me,
My eyes remain tightly shut,
I fear the fate
The coin has brought me,
In the end I sneak a peak,
Tails stares mockingly back,
Hope dies under its cruel stare…

I was born to make mistakes,
I was born to throw it all away,
I was born to live by chance,
I was born to die everyday…