And Again/I Say No

And here I am again,
Square sweet square,
Telling a half truth
To escape future despair,
And despite the minor honesty,
I find my vision narrowed
By the thing not let go
Caused by feelings arrowed…

So this is set in stone,
This ache at my heart’s pit,
No ice or cold
Will freeze or defeat it,
She knows everything,
Yet desires nothing from me,
So now I must lose the ball and chain
That stops my being free…

The silence of solitude is sweeter
Than the freedom of exitlude,
But emancipation brings permanence
Solitude only dreams of…

And my home is a prison,
Locking me away with my feelings,
They haunt me night and day
Mocking my misgivings,
She wishes only to be pleasured
By someone who isn’t me,
So this pitiful struggle
Is pointless I now see…

Shaking tells me to give in,
Heart’s wish is mind’s command,
Fighting will bring more pain than joy
So walk away heart in hand,
It can be reused someday,
Maybe not tomorrow or the next day,
But sometime soon, I say,
When I’ve overcome this inner dismay…

The silence of solitude is sweeter
Than the freedom of exitlude,
But emancipation brings permanence
Solitude only dreams of…

The silence of solitude is sweeter
Than the freedom of exitlude,
But emancipation brings permanence
Solitude only dreams of…

But I say no.
But I say no.
But I say no.
But I say no.

(this is a song, very simple, to the point, but I quite like the chorus so I've included it here - also, the fact that I've managed some measure of control the words when I really just wanted to rant and rave is another reason for its inclusion).