Was your only mistake,
When you flashed that smile
I just had to play;
Once a romantic
Just like you,
Then love unrequited
Changed my view.
Even through text
I could tell you were keen,
Pushing the promise
Of what may have been;
You were just
A midnight taxi away,
So when you called
What else could I say?
I did it to see
What you could do,
I did it to see
If I could truly love you,
I did it with hopes
Of a half-hearted love,
I did it so I knew
It would never be enough.
Cans in your room
With some choice friends,
All of whom knew
Your previous loose ends;
They averted their gaze
While we kissed on the bed,
I felt butterflies in your stomach
But doubts in my head.
We kissed so hard
You made up my nose,
When it bothered me much
I knew we weren’t so close;
I pressed my lips harder
To convince myself no,
A false promise later
And it was time to go.
I did it to see
What you could do,
I did it to see
If I could truly love you,
I did it with hopes
Of a half-hearted love,
I did it so I knew
It would never be enough.
And for four days I thought
Of you an awful lot
Until I finally got shot
Of me within us.
And for four days I thought
Of you an awful lot
Until I suddenly stopped
My indecisiveness.
Then I thought:
“Us without love would never be enough,”
So I text:
“Tonight I’m too busy with other stuff.”
I did it to see
What you could do,
I did it to see
If I could truly love you,
I did it with hopes
Of a half-hearted love,
I did it so I knew
It would never be enough.
