Armed to the Tip

Surrounded by death,

Armed with a pen:

With each last breath

I think about then…

Your eyes smile still

From the edge of home:

Tell me, just then,

Did you feel so alone?

So reconciled,

Beyond recognition:

Bound by the bonds

Of unspoken tradition –

You noosed your own,

As life had shown.

*

You without voice

Lived within you:

You without hearing

Died in situ.

In circles we cycle

To the present day:

Motson mutters,

“More of the same.”

A strangled silence

Kills the strongest:

A life asking “why?”

Is certainly the longest –

Without real repose

As life slowly goes.

*

The ink runs dry,

Re-written thoughts:

All to ask now

Is the number of knots.

A family in tears,

The goalkeeper’s blunder:

While a peerless pro

Brings global wonder.

Before them both

There was only you:

A dangling example

Of what not to do –

With death no-one knows

(what pride would not show).


(here I try to relate the deaths of Gary Speed and Robert Enke with my father's)