Cruelty of Men

Our souls are as empty as an open grave,
Our hearts are as black as a black hole,
Men care only for themselves,
The thoughts and feelings of others,
Are never taken into consideration...

What self-respecting man would make a woman cry?
The answer should be 'no man',
But men are not self-respecting at all,
We don't even respect other people,
We'll gladly break hearts for personal gain...

The nicest women in the world are always the ones,
That receive the most heartbreak from men,
They open up their hearts to us,
And we, as self-centred idiots, take full advantage,
Taking all we can before moving on...

To smash another woman's feelings to pieces,
As that is the cowardly man's way,
We refuse to open up,
Our response to women trying to interpret our feelings,
Is to hurt them so much, they don't want to know anymore...

Our cruelty knows no bounds,
And it plagues all men,
No matter how nice they seem on the surface,
Underneath it all, the black heart beats,
Selfishly searching to improve its own life...

And that is the sad and undeniable truth...

(this poem is the solitary inclusion from Bebo page seven 'cause they're all quite boring and 'cause I still see signs all around me that Cruelty of Men still has a relevant point).

Two-Faced

You're nice on the surface,
Yet evil underneath,
Manipulation is your game,
You gain trust by being kind,
Before betraying it for your own gain,
You don't care who you hurt,
As long as you benefit,
Your concerns on the surface,
Mask your heart's laughter,
You're a man with two faces...

The most conniving you could ever hope to meet...

These Things Happen

I feel the pain of rejection again,
But this time, I know it's not the end,
I've finally realised I still have what's important,
My family and friends, they're coherent,
My family provides the ever present support,
My friends provide the shoulder and the comfort,
I've finally gotten over not making her mine,
Because I'm surrounded by people who are simply divine,
My life's priorities have been all wrong in recent times,
I put finding another ahead of all other climbs,
But not anymore, I know now what's of real value,
I need to keep all of my friends, especially you,
I know now that these things happen,
That things like rejection always happen,
And I also know not to let it ruin me,
I know what's most important now, I can finally see...

That friends are more important than anything...

There and Back Again

Before I have felt all this pain...
I have been there and back again...

The heartache is never ending,
Same mistakes, why keep pretending?
Life's lessons will never be learned,
Opportunities to rectify, constantly spurned,
Every kiss tastes of deceit,
Why don't I just admit defeat?
There is no one out there for me,
I should just bury myself already,
Bury myself so so deep,
That I'll be put into never ending sleep,
I'm tired of failing to learn from before,
I just want to fall away into nevermore...

As before I have felt all this pain...
I have been there and back again...

The Most Glorious Sight

It is times like this,
I wish I could be with you,
Hold you tightly to me,
Play with your hair,
Lose myself in your eyes,
Feel your warmth,
Kiss your lips,
Before drifting off in your arms...

And waking up to the most glorious sight...
That a man could ever wake up to...

Sleeping without you,
Is like losing you forever,
And while our love is only new,
I would feel horribly lost without you,
Especially during times like this,
Where the doubts start creeping,
I need to fall into your arms,
And drift off to the most comfortable of sleeps...

Before waking up to the most glorious sight...
That a man could ever wake up to...

The Last Poem

This is the end,
Don't be angry my friend,
It was always going to end some day,
It was always going to end in some way,
I have had a lot of ups and downs,
I have had plenty of smiles and plenty of frowns,
Yet you were always there for me,
Reading my poems, allowing me to be free,
I have written away all of my emotions,
I have written away all of my devotions,
The time has come for me to retire the pen,
But this last one is for you my friend...

You know me inside-out and upside-down,
You know my every smile and my every frown,
You always know exactly how I am feeling,
Even if I didn't tell you I had been crying,
You know me better than I know myself,
But into all of my feelings I have delved,
You now know everything about me,
Which is why this is the end of my poetry...

But please don't ever stop smiling,
Your smile makes everyone start smiling,
Please don't ever start crying,
Your tears make everyone start crying,
Please don't ever change the way you are,
You're a wonderful person, you're a star,
Please don't ever forget about me,
Even though I have now stopped writing...

This last one is for you my friend...
A piece of me will always be with you until the eternal end...

The Last Hurrah Before the Final Fall

It was a night filled with music and dancing,
With humorous antics like flag stealing,
It was a night where everything went perfect,
Where the problems underneath my laughter,
Were nowhere to be seen...

I was up with all my friends,
Laughing and dancing,
It seemed I had turned the corner,
But just like all diseases and problems,
Things improved so much, it looked like I was past it all...

Before everything fell apart again...
For one last time...

The Kiss

Not a day into my liberation,
And something has happened that defies imagination,
A day after I said I would just wait and see,
And already I can see quite clearly,
You are the one that has stolen my heart,
You are the one who has given me a fresh start…

On a couch in Henry we laid,
It was the stuff that dreams are made,
We were lying in a way that meant we were upside-down,
But we kissed all the same, not a hint of a frown,
It was wonderfully amazing,
Looking into those eyes was like star gazing…

All the way home I sang and smiled,
The memory of that kiss driving me wild,
Thoughts of you send my mind into a frenzy,
Knowing I’ll see you again makes me go crazy,
The magic of that moment will stay with me forever,
The power of that kiss will remain until ever becomes never…

That kiss was so very special to me…
I hope more will come throughout eternity...

The First Star

While standing, waiting, facing the sea,
I look up at the night sky,
There, the moon shines as bright as the sun,
It is a beautiful sight to behold...

Then I see a little light flicker in the sky,
The first star of the night has appeared,
It shines like a tiny candle,
Beside the blazing fire of the moon...

They say make a wish upon the first star of the night,
So I wish for the obvious thing,
The hand of the woman I think about constantly,
So I can share times like this with her...

Having made my wish,
I look away for a split second,
And look back again,
Only to find that the first star had vanished...

Is it a sign of my wish being granted?

The Breakdown

The breakdown has finally happened,
Years of mental barriers are destroyed,
The fake personality that has been created,
Has finally come flying apart,
All the love and the plaudits that have been awarded to me,
Are all snatched away,
They were all earned in an underhand way,
I don't deserve them,
And never will...

The brain has finally cracked under pressure,
The years of lying have taken their toll,
Everything dark comes into the light,
A lot of innocent people are hurt,
I have betrayed their trust and friendship,
They have befriended someone who wasn't me,
Someone who was a complete stranger to me,
But now the stranger has been beaten,
The image of him is now distorted,
Until it now resembles the true personality of myself...

The selfish, twisted and self loathing fool is now back again...

Screaming Bullets

A mind consumed by nothing but madness,
Following years of nothing but sadness,
A mentally broken shadow of a man,
Has ruined God's ingenious musical master plan...

He abandons the one he claims he loves,
Her love for him never seemed to be enough,
He goes to New York and he gets a gun,
And the screams of the bullets were heard by everyone...

Every night he screams and screams,
Yet he only ever screams silently,
The screams echo in his chest painfully,
He shares in everyone's pain, he knows of it already...

Then one night his silence broke,
On his own tears he began to choke,
It seemed he would walk away from this horrible act,
But in the end he couldn't break his own pact...

That night the gun did his screaming,
That night millions started grieving,
That night innocent blood was spilled,
That night a God amongst men was killed...

That night he pulled the trigger of the gun...
That night he shot the immortal John Lennon.

Moonlight

The light of the moon in the sky,
Creates shadows that the sun would be envious of,
The clouds all part due to the brightness of the night,
A cloudy night is now cloudless,
An average skyline is now mesmerising...

The light of the moon can guide,
The light of the moon can show the way,
I know I will find my way home tonight,
Because the moonlight's rays will protect me,
And make sure I see my bed again...

Liberation

I've finally done it,
I've finally broken free of the shackles,
That bound my heart to my head,
I've finally escaped the mind consuming idea,
That the most important thing in life is love,
I'm free from the ball and chain,
Free from the thoughts of endless heartbreak,
I've experienced everything life has to offer,
Love, hate and everything in between,
But now I've broken free of my mental constraints,
And my friend opens her arms and proclaims,
It's good to have you back...

To which my reply is...
It's good to be back...

I Love You More

I have been shaken to my heart's core,
I have never felt this feeling before,
Of having someone to put to the fore,
Of having someone to say 'I love you more...'

When with me, she never has to open a door,
She never has to worry about war,
She only has to look at the shore,
While I whisper in her ear 'I love you more...'

She is the one who makes me soar,
She is the one who makes my heart roar,
She is the one I want to be with forevermore,
She is the one who always says 'I love you more...'

A moment with her is never a bore,
We argue about who loves who more,
People ask what do we do that for,
The answer is in the feelings we pore...

When we say to each other 'I love you more...'

Emancipation

I read my writings of old,
And am surprised by how much I have changed,
I always thought I'd love her forever,
But now it seems I might be finally over her...

It's very strange reading my old writings,
As it's hard to believe my feelings were that strong,
When now I feel almost nothing,
Now I feel like she's just another person...

She was my first love,
Not that she ever knew,
And she will always hold a special place in my heart,
Even if I don't in hers...

Everything I wrote about her still stands,
Those feelings did exist once,
But they don't anymore,
It seems like my heart is free...

Free for me to give to whom I please.

Don't Worry

You wear a concerned expression,
I ask you why you do so,
You say someone has mocked the way you look,
I say that for them to do that is crazy,
You're beautiful, you're amazing...

And anyone who says otherwise is just jealous...

From a Dance to Romance

It was in the middle of the dance floor,
Where I first saw you and nothing more,
Where I first spotted your pretty face,
And saw you moving with such amazing grace,
That I wanted no one else but you,
With a pause in your elegance being the cue,
For me to ask you a burning question,
The answer of which I waited for with trepidation...

Would you care to dance with me?
Your smile and nod made my heart dance with glee,
It was then we danced the night away,
Danced for so long that night became day,
That night we got lost in the atmosphere,
Yet my muddled thoughts suddenly became clear,
You are the only one I want to kiss,
So I move in, hoping for bliss...

Our lips touch...
My thoughts start to rush...

How did we go from a simple dance...
To all this love and romance?

Don't Be Afraid

Whenever you want something so nice,
You just have to take a chance and roll the dice,
You have to risk everything in your life,
Just to move on and end this internal strife,
Playing it safe is the easy way out,
In your mind it seemingly leaves no doubt,
Yet by playing it safe you will never truly know,
What your life would've been like had you given it a go,
So don't ever be afraid to try anything new,
You never know where it might lead you,
And even if it ends in pain and it makes you cry,
You're safe in the knowledge that you at least gave it a try...

Death in His Cloak

They hardly ever spoke,
They were just a bunch of quiet folk,
But for no reason along came Death in his cloak,
And burned their town up in fire and smoke,
The vicious flames he continued to stoke,
To him it was nothing but a cruel joke,
But now all the town's people's tears do is soak...

They hardly ever spoke...
Not even when Death came along in his cloak...

Growing Feelings

The more I'm around you,
The more I become attached to you,
The more I'm away from you,
The more I miss you,
The more I talk to you,
The more I realise I need you,
The more I kiss you,
The more my feelings grow for you...

And every time you walk out that door,
It becomes clear that I need you more...